March 23, 2010

Emptiness

Posted in recovery tagged , , , , , at 12:17 am by eddejae

I feel invalidated. I made my lip bleed chewing it out of anxiety. I hate the taste of blood.

I felt that familiar emptiness inside today. It frightened me. It is that empty ache that leads me to self-destruct or run away from everything…

I do not think I should be left alone.

I walked outside and looked up at the stars, and felt lost…

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2 Comments »

  1. Jen said,

    You can rewrite yourself.

    Step out of the confusion. Don’t take your energy from others and outside experiences … rely on YOUR energy, from within you. It’s true, and it’s powerful, and it will never let you down.

    http://www.fightinganxiety.wordpress.com

  2. bpdisme said,

    I know the feeling…well articulated!


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