July 3, 2010

Seven Days of Sunset ~ Day 7… Closing Words: Part 2…

Posted in recovery tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , at 2:04 pm by eddejae

When you hold on to your past, you impede your progress.

The greatest thing you can do for yourself is to forgive yourself and to let go so you can move forward. This often the hardest and last step. It was for me.

Ultimately, you make the choice of how you want your life to be. No matter what has happened in your past, you can change your life. Make the decision. Right now. Decide to take responsibility from this moment on for who you become.

Start where you are. This moment. Stop waiting for a miracle.

I realized it wasn’t God that was punishing me. I was punishing myself for things that had happened and things I had no control over. At least not anymore. Living in the past does nothing. So I let it go and chose to begin a new chapter.

I gave myself the power back. I took the power away from my past, from my mistakes, from my abusers, from depression, from BPD, and gave it back to myself. I chose to rise above. When you accept what has happened and relinquish yourself from undeserved blame and guilt, while taking appropriate responsibility for your actions – you become empowered again. You are able to let go of the burdens of the past. You are able to forgive yourself and move forward.

This is what happened for me, after years and years of blaming myself, of striving for unattainable perfection, of feeling guilty for everything I did.

Now I am moving on. Putting my past behind me, only taking what I have learned so that I may use it to bless my life and those around me.

I can allow myself to be happy now. To live, freely.

I can be me.

Perfectly imperfect.

Day by day, step by step, I’ve become a little more unbroken.

And though sometimes I fall… I’m forever falling forward…

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6 Comments »

  1. rosey said,

    What perfect words. Just what I needed to hear. Thank you so much for your wonderful words. I always look forward to reading your blog. You so often have the right things to say at the right time. Best wishes and lots of love Rosey xx

  2. doyourememberthattime said,

    good advice. so very hard to follow,though. i am really enjoying your blog.

    http://doyourememberthattime.wordpress.com

  3. 2tightlywound said,

    I was just talking with my therapist yesterday about forgiving myself…
    I haven’t done anything extremely bad.
    And even if I did, God would forgive me, so why shouldn’t I be able to forgive myself?
    Every mistake I make becomes an enormous failure, but it need not be.
    This was the perfect time for this post. Thank you 🙂

  4. Treyvone said,

    I will miss your words sorely once you leave, I never got a chance to wish youu luck, no not luck but peace and joy. May your new road lead to less stumbling blocks and to smoother waters. Let love lead the way, and with every fall, never forget. You are perfectly imperfect.

    Lots of love from Africa.

  5. saja said,

    thank you for your precious words , it really touched my soul and it makes me believe more in my self .

  6. mommacoley said,

    Reblogged this on mommacoley.


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