June 27, 2010

Seven Days of Sunset ~ Day 2… The Woman I Want To Be…

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Over the years I have developed a picture of what a human being living humanely is like. She is a person who understand, values and develops her body, finding it beautiful and useful; a person who is real and is willing to take risks, to be creative, to manifest competence, to change when the situation calls for it, and to find ways to accommodate to what is new and different, keeping that part of the old that is still useful and discarding what is not ~Virginia Satir

This has been the Second Day of Sunset…


Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm,

but to add color to my sunset sky…

May 14, 2010

Emotional Color

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You are my sunshine on a cloudy day.

You make every day worth living.

You give it meaning and vibrance.

You make me excited for every new day.

Life is so full of emotional color.

You make me feel color.

When you’re happy…

I feel vibrant yellows when you smile.

You make my heart feel like a soothing, calm blue.

When you’re sad…

I feel a beautiful shade of grey that fades into a relaxing white as we work through it,

And when we are done talking it out I close my eyes and feel the stillness of the

Darkest night with the beautiful stars in my heart.

~Todd

February 28, 2010

Both Sides Now

Posted in recovery tagged , , , , , at 10:45 pm by eddejae

I was listening to this song on my ipod today, and it just really hit home with me. It’s kind of my perspective on life right now. Here is the version sung by Hayley Westenra, one of my favorite female singers.  Enjoy!

Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I’ve looked at clouds that way

But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
Clouds got in my way

I’ve looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It’s cloud illusions I recall
I really don’t know clouds at all

Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way that you feel
As every fairy tale comes real
I’ve looked at love that way

But now it’s just another show
And you leave ’em laughing when you go
And if you care, don’t let them know
Don’t give yourself away

I’ve looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It’s love’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know love
Really don’t know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say “I love you” right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I’ve looked at life that way

Oh but now old friends they’re acting strange
And they shake their heads
And they tell me that I’ve changed
Well something’s lost but something’s gained
In living every day

I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life
I really don’t know life at all