May 14, 2010

Emotional Color

Posted in recovery tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , at 12:01 pm by eddejae

You are my sunshine on a cloudy day.

You make every day worth living.

You give it meaning and vibrance.

You make me excited for every new day.

Life is so full of emotional color.

You make me feel color.

When you’re happy…

I feel vibrant yellows when you smile.

You make my heart feel like a soothing, calm blue.

When you’re sad…

I feel a beautiful shade of grey that fades into a relaxing white as we work through it,

And when we are done talking it out I close my eyes and feel the stillness of the

Darkest night with the beautiful stars in my heart.



March 23, 2010


Posted in recovery tagged , , , , , at 12:17 am by eddejae

I feel invalidated. I made my lip bleed chewing it out of anxiety. I hate the taste of blood.

I felt that familiar emptiness inside today. It frightened me. It is that empty ache that leads me to self-destruct or run away from everything…

I do not think I should be left alone.

I walked outside and looked up at the stars, and felt lost…